Busy Doing Nuthin’

This is what I wrote.

I titled it: Saturday Night

I’ve really struggled with deciding whether or not I should write you. After discussions with several of my girlfriends who all feel I should write you, I am.

I want you to know that I’m not writing to cause more pain [...]

I still haven’t messaged his ex at this point. I saw some more transactions between him & her and she sounded like she was reluctant to let him into her life. I didn’t want to interfere with that. However, I had drafted a letter that I was humming and haaing on. [...]

I was stunned and pissed. I wasn’t hurt. That is for sure. I wasn’t all choked up about this guy. If I was hurt at all, I was mad at myself for ever having believed this douche. I had SO MANY flags & chose to ignore them. So I blamed me.

I [...]

I won’t lie (I should put that on my tombstone), I was pissed. I was pissed because I didn’t feel like I got the last word in. I kind of want this ass clown to feel really bad but I think the only way that will happen is if I set [...]

I’ve replayed this entire relationship, under mass scrutiny, I keep wondering why I second guessed my instincts or failed to see the massive signs to run. However, like most people, I want to believe the good in others. I want to think when they say “I like you” they mean it [...]